It’s been a year and deep down I don’t think I’m over her

Only dated 2 other girls since her, both were shitty experiences. One ran off to Martha's vineyard, the other cheated with a dozen guys.

I tell myself I'm over her, he'll I make myself think of all the shitty times when we were together. But I still have "nightmares" about her. I refuse to call them dreams.

I don't even want any girlfriend or significant other anymore. Maybe that's just denial but fuck. I guess I'm just ranting.

Edit: Oh my bad I'm dyslexic as fuck, I thought this was for getting over a girlfriend. Whoops