I need help

All the guys at my school have abs and are hot white men I can’t do shit about it and the only girl I liked I just got rejected by I cared about her and I thought she felt the same but I was wrong I don’t have the courage to live anymore I have been made fun of because I’m a white mixed up fuck that is a nobody that fits in nowhere it’s the 1st month of my freshman year and I already hate it what should I do?